The World I Choose to Live In

After finishing the first season of True Blood, I feel giddy and excited- like a little child again. The show- full of passion, wit, and horror- is delightfully cheesy, and most importantly, takes you into another world- the way film and TV are supposed too. It very much reminds me of the reason why I choose to be an actor, a writer: an artist. It is the exact reason I fell in love with the theater in the second grade- YOU can become a part of a different world- that exists through the combined passion of many actors, writers, directors, the audience… all coming together to form a world that although technically may be “make believe” is SO very real. I remember being taken out of school in the seventh grade for a production of “A Little Night Music.” I fell in love with the cast, the theater, Sondheim, the world on stage and off. I have the fondest and most ethereal memories of that period in my life. It became extremely clear to me at that time that THIS was my home. This is where I belong. I was the only child in the cast, and yet, I felt more in place than I had ever felt anywhere in my life. And that feeling is never fleeting, for every project I have done, since I was in the second grade until now- leaves me with that beautiful feeling- It is who I am. Every time I finish a project, a novel, even simply watching a film, I always feel such an overwhelming sense of sadness. That world seems to be over… but the comforting realization that lies underneath the sadness is that it actually never really leaves you. It, whatever the form of art is, is always a part of you. That is the beautiful and amazing aspect of art in general- it never goes away. A fine piece of literature, a stunning film, a stirring poem- touches you, moves you, and becomes you. You become a part of IT. It is not a solo endeavor, it is a dual process- a relationship between you and the work. It is so truly magical. It is what keeps me going in times of great sadness, in times of great joy- It is my constant, it is the true love of my life- one that will never leave me. And that my friends, is incredible. So whether it be “True Blood” or a musical I was in when I was 11- It is a part of me, it builds who I am, It is the world I choose to live in.

Jordan Lane
Music video: From my favorite artist, Fionna Apple’s version of Across The Universe. Beautiful rendition and great video…

The First One.

So- this is the first one, my very first blog-my blog virginity being snatched away from me…with the exceptions of the good old “xanga” and “livejournal” websites that were absurdly popular during my middle school years… but those boys… well, they didn’t count. Well anyway- I’ve created this site as a form of creative release and a forum to express my daily feelings on anything and everything. A place where I can share my ramblings on every day NYC life, problems, achievements, adventures, film, literature… I realise there will probably be less than approximately two people reading this, but in any case, feedback and further discussion is always appreciated. I have always wanted to start a blog to express my feelings and thought processes, and I have finally taken the plunge, as lame as that might sound. I am excited to record my life, express my journeys and inspirations, frustrations and resolutions, and whatever else there is to share…

Oh- And I added one of my favorite songs of all time below… If you couldn’t pick it up from the title of my blog…it’s Where Is My Mind by the Pixies… Enjoy!!